It is not the decision.. it is the after thought!!!

Last one month had been the most terrible roller coaster ride one can imagine. At least I did not see it coming. Now that I know what's in store at least for next couple of months, I found a good enough excuse to post

i suddenly felt very secured in life and wondered if it wasn't too early? i wanted to live in uncertainty and live the way i wished for. But wasn't I independent enough already?

i decided to resign. Medical problems clubbed with few more tit bits here and there, and now its about time to leave from here. i still think why? And fail to answer why not? Travel and living and a couple of SEX AND THE CITY episodes crated this dilemma - it is the decision or the after thought?

i think the pain of separation from anything actually brings this immense desire of preserving it. But if we do not live the pain, is it worth calling it valuable? Pretty confusing and yes it's coming from a woman's brain.

Wednesday morning, while every one was rushing towards the usual designed routine, my mind wandered. I was not even remotely attracted to him, but then i can call it nice. Not really sure if I am looking forward to it again but God bless him.

Ciao...